A book that many of us, perhaps, didn’t quite know was even coming. On Wednesday, we, were surprised to discover that SHK ‘s book: Trainwreck had arrived for each of us. This is the first time we’ve ever seen the book, and, the first time we’ve found ourselves in a collective “gasp” followed by nearly every single one of our writers unable to read beyond the first chapter.
On Wednesday morning, we, were collectively invited to a massive video chat by SHK himself. In the video chat, he, explained that after 15 years the veil he’s so carefully kept himself behind for nearly two decades is being lifted. Some of the things in this book, we, were never aware of.
We’d like to take this moment to say this.
Sexual assault; domestic violence, and rape are never okay. Neither is attempting to take your life. If you or someone you know is experiencing the aftermath of any of these events or contemplating suicide, please call the national SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE ..
In the United Kingdom
- Samaritans (116 123) operates a 24-hour service available every day of the year. If you prefer to write down how you’re feeling, or if you’re worried about being overheard on the phone, you can email Samaritans at [email protected].
- Childline (0800 1111) runs a helpline for children and young people in the UK. Calls are free and the number won’t show up on your phone bill.
- PAPYRUS (0800 068 41 41) is a voluntary organisation supporting teenagers and young adults who are feeling suicidal.
In the United States
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-TALK ) is a United States-based suicide prevention network of 161 crisis centers that provides a 24/7, toll-free hotline available to anyone in suicidal crisis or emotional distress.
Initially, we were taken back, to learn that the same newspaper boss that has strategically led each of us into unimaginable territory is the same person who has secretly struggled with the aftermath of being raped; attempting to take his life at least five times, and being abandoned by both of his adopted parents.
If there’s one thing this book taught us, it’s that, even the most extraordinary of people are those that deeply struggle the most. Three pages in, this, was the first excerpt one sees.
“At 22, my Mom doesn’t talk to me anymore, neither much does my father. My Mom stopped being my Mom after the age of about 12, because, I told her I liked boys and not girls. She promised me that nothing would change, and that, we would still be the same. It never was. Spending time with my mom; watching old re-runs of I Love Lucy was my favorite past time. It all went away when on December 12th 2006 that I told her in a letter just before Christmas: I liked boys”.
The heart breaking memoir continues…
“Over the course of the next year, I, would see my Mom change — and change drastically. Her words; her movements, the way she would love me. It felt so distant. Gay remarks; remarks about my then boyfriend of color. It all proved to much. For the first time when I was 13 1/2, I tried to drink a bottle of Victoria’s Secret perfume, that, I had hoped would kill me as fast as it possibly could”.
Over the course of the next week, we, will be sharing some of our favorite parts of his book as we rally around SHK at a time he needs our help more than ever before. In the coming weeks, SHK, will continue to undergo mental health treatment, and, seek the help he’s so desperately needed over the years that he was denied by his adopted family.